Which way is up again?

So, I had built my life on a very nice rug. It complimented my lifestyle, pulling everything on top of that rug together. And no matter what I added to my life, it was all nicely constructed. Well, over the course of merely weeks, that rug has been ripped out from under my feet, and my whole world has fallen a part. My family? Well, my parents have announced that they are getting a divorce. Um.....WHAT?!?! 20+ years of marriage, 27+ years of being a couple.....POOF! Gone. So my mother is now moving to San Antonio, whilst my father gets to re-evaluate his life in his cushy 4-story water-front condo in Hampton, Virginia. I am not mad at either of my parents, and I love them both to death. This is just weird though. Tonight at dinner with my mother, brother, and cousin, it became very clear that while I am a mirror image of my mother, my brother is likewise a mirror image of my father. I'm not sure what to say to my dad or when I will talk to him about all of this. But I do plan on going to visit him by myself soon, sometime this summer. One on one time will defiantly do me wonders in this whole situation. But this divorce business leads to another thing that has turned upside down in my life. My parents will no longer be able to support me. In other words, I need a job. A real job. Well, I had my dream job just 2 weeks ago.....then that decided to pull a 180 on me as well. One day I find out that my boss has been telling the girls that I have been sending her nasty emails and that I have stolen money from her. Um....Que? I don't even have that woman's email address! And if anyone knows me, they know I would NEVER steal money from anyone! I feel guilty enough when a friend offers to buy me dinner because my funds are low! So I decided to call my ex-boss, and when I finally got a hold of her, she decided to cuss me out and did not give me a chance to talk. Yeah....I was hurt by that one. But now, it leaves me needing to find a job. One that I can rely on and make full-time hours and get enough salary to pay part of my rent and all my bills. And maybe, if I'm lucky, I'll also get enough wages to start paying for school. Yeah. I have to pay for school meself nowadays. And I was stupid and squandered my savings once I got access to that account. Well, school is coming out of the pocket de moi. My parents make to much for me to get financial aide, and I REFUSE to get a loan. But, if there is a will, there is a way. I want to go back to school. I really do. My dream? Get two Associate's degrees at Northwest Vista College; The first in Dance, the second in Fine Arts (Drawing). After that's done, I want to return to UTSA and get my Bachelors in Fine Arts (Painting) with minors in Business and in Education. It really makes me sad that I won't be able to graduate at the same time as my friends. But hey, c'est la vie. A bomb got dropped on my head today when I found out my dear friend Derek is leaving tomorrow morning. For California. Grad School. I am sooooo happy for him and uber proud of him. I really am. It's just....he is such a good friend, he really is like an older brother. Few people in SA have known me longer than he has. Well, I pray for his happiness and success. (*sigh*) And of course, my friends have been changing. Not in a bad way, I mean in a they-are-not-in-San-Antonio-to-tell-me-I'm-stupid kind of way. And my best friend Bubba J doesn't have a car anymore so he doesn't come over to wake me up anymore..... Blah. So yeah....my life is kind of upside down, inside out, where am I? But there are good things! Like, I have a great boyfriend now. He is super sweet and treats me very well. And he has a parrot. Named Riley. That likes to sit on my shoulder. So I pretend I'm a pirate. I say Argh when Riley is on my shoulder. Haha. Well, I guess that is my little rant....I feel better now. Let me just say, at the end of the day, God is great. Blessings to you and your loved ones (and your enemies). Te amo con todo mi corazon y no puedo vivir sin ti. :-)